Making friends with a saxophone.
Everyone joins clubs in school right? Football club? Swimming? Hockey? It's a great way to make friends and become a part of something bigger than just yourself. I however, chose to learn to play the saxophone. I'd played the trumpet in primary school and felt I was finally ready for something bigger. No obviously, yanking this thing around school was impossible. The case was huge, chunky and damn right heavy. After a few weeks of suffering it was agreed that I could leave my Sax in the music room after my lesson, and leave the last lesson of the day 10 minutes early in order for me to go and collect it. This typically only took me two minutes which meant I was off schools groups 8 minutes early and home before the final bell rung. It was great! The thing that sucked for me was, I got to take a friend with me each time... Why is that a bad thing? Well.
Today was fun, I spent the hole time after school on the trampoline with (My brother) learning different moves and tricks. I can NEARLY do a front flip now. I've been on msn again and now i've changed my name to 'if you put me in your name i will put you in mine' S has taken me off her name and put F & W on there instead.
Just incase this doesn't make sense, there was a little box on Msn near your username where you could type like 50 or so words. Typically this was reserved for boyfriends and 'best friends'. It would appear when you viewed your contacts as a list and was very important.
I've still left S in mine just incase she did it by accident or just ran out of room for names. She spends a lot more time with the other girls than me now so maybe thats why. Maybe they changed it for her and she hasn't noticed.
I couldn't find her before reg this morning. I think they all hang out somewhere else or just walk to school later because they always walk past me to the back of the queue when they open the doors. today i was late too because the door wernt open for me to put my sax in the cabbins so me and A had to carry ours around all day until our lesson during P.e. It was cool at break through because we could sit on them instead of on the floor.
We had PSE last lesson today and I sat by K. We had to work in partners with someone we werent sat by in the first place and i ended up sat by K. Shes really quiet and whenever i talk she just sort of said yes or no. She even told me to stop talking once but i think it's because she's shy. When we were supposed to do work together she told me to just let her fill it in that we didn't need to talk. Anyway. I havent talked about K before. She's not normally quiet though. I've seen her once on H block stairs, she was play fighting with L and as i walked past she bit him. ANYWAY towards the end of class Mr A told me I could go and get my sax, but instead of just letting me go he asked me in frount of everyone if i wanted to take a friend. I asked K because she was sat next to me as i was packing up and she told me she couldnt that she had to wait for people to walk home with, so i asked A, but she couldnt come because she was scared she'd miss the bus even after i told her it would make her early for the bus. I went to walk out of the class and Mr A asked me again, 'arent you going to take a friend?' i saw the boys at the front laughing. I looked and smiled at S but she just shook her head..WHAT THE HELL i KNOW she wanted to walk home and she would get home early? ahhhh
(draws angry scribble on page)
Nobody wanted to come with me even though it meant leaving school early. I told sir I was meeting someone in the music room to walk home with and walked out but i felt so stupid. I defiantly need to speak to S more so she wants to be my friend again. Dad said I can have a sleepover soon and she always used to say yes to sleepovers.
I wish i was back in primary school. Or I just wish I was popular. We've got a non school uniform day next week and i'm going to wear to top auntie F got me because its from river ilsand. That shop is Definatly cool! all the popular girls use RI bags to carry their PE kit. Some of them use Jane Norman ones but i dont know if there's one of those in talbot green. I'm going to go down soon and buy something little just so i can have the carrier bag to take my PE kit in. I took my yellow one in last week but G told me that it was old because they only give out bright pink ones this year. SO i need a new one!
I'm done with school now anyway!! i'm still on msn but im just talking to smartchild. She gets really annoyed when you nudge her and send one back. I asked her about how to make more friends because apparently she knows the answer to everything but she just told me that she was my firend WHICH IT NO GOOD. today has been so so so long but its saturday tomorow and me and dad are going to ambers so i better go to sleep.
GOODNIGHT xx
P.s its 1.34 am and im still online!!!!
GOODnight!
So I guess this was a rather rough day for 'Jazzy Jemma' - poor kid. It's a good thing I'm cool as heck now. Also this makes out that I had Zero friends at this point. I did in fact have one. A was my best friend from primary school. I'm sure she was off this day but I'm 99% sure we weren't in the class together because I remember walking to get my Sax alone thousands of times. I typically only skip through my diary to find a page to post on here and I must admit it is feeling me with nostalgia. Even the bad days are fun to write about because I'm not anything like the person I was on these pages. I love being different now. I love people thinking I'm weird. I have brilliant friends who love me for the person I am and wouldn't change me for the world. I've had a few people, typically younger friends from Facebook or people who remember going through similar experiences message me to say how helpful these posts were. Everybody is weird. Some people are just better at pretending not to be.
You do you.
It's Jemma with a J. x
Everyone joins clubs in school right? Football club? Swimming? Hockey? It's a great way to make friends and become a part of something bigger than just yourself. I however, chose to learn to play the saxophone. I'd played the trumpet in primary school and felt I was finally ready for something bigger. No obviously, yanking this thing around school was impossible. The case was huge, chunky and damn right heavy. After a few weeks of suffering it was agreed that I could leave my Sax in the music room after my lesson, and leave the last lesson of the day 10 minutes early in order for me to go and collect it. This typically only took me two minutes which meant I was off schools groups 8 minutes early and home before the final bell rung. It was great! The thing that sucked for me was, I got to take a friend with me each time... Why is that a bad thing? Well.
Today was fun, I spent the hole time after school on the trampoline with (My brother) learning different moves and tricks. I can NEARLY do a front flip now. I've been on msn again and now i've changed my name to 'if you put me in your name i will put you in mine' S has taken me off her name and put F & W on there instead.
Just incase this doesn't make sense, there was a little box on Msn near your username where you could type like 50 or so words. Typically this was reserved for boyfriends and 'best friends'. It would appear when you viewed your contacts as a list and was very important.
I've still left S in mine just incase she did it by accident or just ran out of room for names. She spends a lot more time with the other girls than me now so maybe thats why. Maybe they changed it for her and she hasn't noticed.
I couldn't find her before reg this morning. I think they all hang out somewhere else or just walk to school later because they always walk past me to the back of the queue when they open the doors. today i was late too because the door wernt open for me to put my sax in the cabbins so me and A had to carry ours around all day until our lesson during P.e. It was cool at break through because we could sit on them instead of on the floor.
We had PSE last lesson today and I sat by K. We had to work in partners with someone we werent sat by in the first place and i ended up sat by K. Shes really quiet and whenever i talk she just sort of said yes or no. She even told me to stop talking once but i think it's because she's shy. When we were supposed to do work together she told me to just let her fill it in that we didn't need to talk. Anyway. I havent talked about K before. She's not normally quiet though. I've seen her once on H block stairs, she was play fighting with L and as i walked past she bit him. ANYWAY towards the end of class Mr A told me I could go and get my sax, but instead of just letting me go he asked me in frount of everyone if i wanted to take a friend. I asked K because she was sat next to me as i was packing up and she told me she couldnt that she had to wait for people to walk home with, so i asked A, but she couldnt come because she was scared she'd miss the bus even after i told her it would make her early for the bus. I went to walk out of the class and Mr A asked me again, 'arent you going to take a friend?' i saw the boys at the front laughing. I looked and smiled at S but she just shook her head..WHAT THE HELL i KNOW she wanted to walk home and she would get home early? ahhhh
(draws angry scribble on page)
Nobody wanted to come with me even though it meant leaving school early. I told sir I was meeting someone in the music room to walk home with and walked out but i felt so stupid. I defiantly need to speak to S more so she wants to be my friend again. Dad said I can have a sleepover soon and she always used to say yes to sleepovers.
I wish i was back in primary school. Or I just wish I was popular. We've got a non school uniform day next week and i'm going to wear to top auntie F got me because its from river ilsand. That shop is Definatly cool! all the popular girls use RI bags to carry their PE kit. Some of them use Jane Norman ones but i dont know if there's one of those in talbot green. I'm going to go down soon and buy something little just so i can have the carrier bag to take my PE kit in. I took my yellow one in last week but G told me that it was old because they only give out bright pink ones this year. SO i need a new one!
I'm done with school now anyway!! i'm still on msn but im just talking to smartchild. She gets really annoyed when you nudge her and send one back. I asked her about how to make more friends because apparently she knows the answer to everything but she just told me that she was my firend WHICH IT NO GOOD. today has been so so so long but its saturday tomorow and me and dad are going to ambers so i better go to sleep.
GOODNIGHT xx
P.s its 1.34 am and im still online!!!!
GOODnight!
So I guess this was a rather rough day for 'Jazzy Jemma' - poor kid. It's a good thing I'm cool as heck now. Also this makes out that I had Zero friends at this point. I did in fact have one. A was my best friend from primary school. I'm sure she was off this day but I'm 99% sure we weren't in the class together because I remember walking to get my Sax alone thousands of times. I typically only skip through my diary to find a page to post on here and I must admit it is feeling me with nostalgia. Even the bad days are fun to write about because I'm not anything like the person I was on these pages. I love being different now. I love people thinking I'm weird. I have brilliant friends who love me for the person I am and wouldn't change me for the world. I've had a few people, typically younger friends from Facebook or people who remember going through similar experiences message me to say how helpful these posts were. Everybody is weird. Some people are just better at pretending not to be.
You do you.
It's Jemma with a J. x
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